Step 5 Introduction: My History as Bart Simpson

Step 5 – Admitted to the world, to another person, and to ourselves the exact nature of our disease.

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Writing is a solitary thing. No, really. One of my favorite bits from the The Simpsons is the summer where Bart breaks his leg. And he’s alone. And he gets weird. At one point, Lisa invites him out for something, and Bart, reduced to a pale, raccoon-eyed creature, hisses at her, “No, Lisa, I can’t. I’m working on my play.”

Spending large amounts of time alone is not good for human beings. We get strange. But as a writer, that’s one of the job hazards. I got used to being alone, though, even before I chose to write in every spare second I had.

I grew up in the basement of my house watching TV and working on my play. I was pale. I had dark circles under my eyes. And I was alone. I built multiverses out of legos. I read dark tomes. I watched Happy Days. Lots of Happy Days. Real life couldn’t compete with all that alone time.

I can still go there, and so I can write books. If I had been more well-adjusted and popular, I probably wouldn’t have wanted to be a writer. What’s done is done, though.

The thing is, after I wrote in isolation for years and years, fourteen years and hundreds of thousands of words later, I wasn’t making much progress. And I was lonely.

Somehow, I got the idea that writers were like high school theatre people. Not sure where I got that. It’s not the truth. I was driven to meet other writers because I was desperate to improve and I needed help. So I reached out.

We write alone, but we are not alone.

All of that is a long intro to Step Five. Step Five in its basic form is reading our inventory out loud to another person. A real-life person. Someone who can listen and keep quiet about what they heard. Some people use priests for this. Others call 411. True story, someone dropped an inventory on the poor gal working the information desk.

The process of reading our inventory, listing our inventories, admitting to our petty resentments, makes it real. As we read, we are admitting to ourselves what is really going on. Another person bears witness and represents the world. Get out your rosary beads, light the incense, get your Catholic on—this is a confession.

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We’ll talk more about step five next week.

I Get Blue and Gray With Historical Fiction Writer Quinn Kayser-Cochran Part 2

quinn k 9863dd3Ready for more Civil War?  Of course you are!  Everyone loves the Civil War!  It was so Civil.  And so warry.

Okay, now for part II of the interview.  Charge!!!!!!!!!!

AARON: In the West, which side would you have wanted to fight on? Don’t worry, if you say Confederates we won’t say you’re racist. We’ll just think it.

 

Quinn: The Coloradans, no question. Come on, Aaron: no real Coloradan shoulders arms so that Texans can overrun our state—we have real-estate agents for that.

AARON: What would have been the worst part of fighting in the Civil War? The drab uniforms? The bad coffee? Dysentery?

Quinn: Probably everyone agrees that dysentery is worse than chicory coffee (I’d say that everyone agrees, but people are strange …), and chicory coffee (made from ground, roasted endive roots, chicory coffee was more-readily available than the real thing—especially to Southern troops later in the war, as the Union’s naval blockade curtailed imports of every kind) is—in my opinion—worse than a drab uniform. And besides, early in the war some regiments wore hilariously theatrical uniforms (the 11th New York Infantry Zouaves spring to mind—their uniforms were patterned on those worn by French colonial troops in Algeria: gray MC Hammer-pants with red and blue trim, leather leggings, red fezzes, etc.).

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Seriously, though? As in any war, many men struggled with the emotional toll of killing other humans. Even those who believed in the correctness of their cause, or those whose church leaders had exempted them from normal strictures against killing, struggled to process the things they’d done (speaking of which, Lord, you wouldn’t believe the contortions some religious leaders went through to justify the wholesale murder taking place within their parishes). Of course, back then there was no such term as Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder—rather, men unhinged by the war were said to have a “soldier’s heart.” This legacy of violence, coupled with residual bitterness between barely-reconciled veterans, accounts for much of what made the West wild in the decades after the war. Men who’d killed dozens or even hundreds at Antietam, Shiloh, or Franklin, were less likely to show restraint during barroom brawls in Dodge City, Bodie, or Bannack. John Potts Slough, for example (the temperamental commander of Union forces at Glorieta Pass and a major supporting character in my novel)—who received a patronage appointment after the war as postmaster of Santa Fe—was shot dead during an argument with a political rival in the lobby of the La Fonda Hotel.

Other miseries? Lice. Smallpox. Loneliness—missing family and friends. Boredom, too. Boredom intercut with horrifying violence, as the Civil War marked a turning point in the scope and scale of warfare: 18th Century tactics were pitted against modern weapons (e.g., frontal charges with bayonets against entrenched enemies with rifled muskets and artillery), and the weapons won. The killing was almost without precedent. Indeed, European observers were so impressed by Confederate entrenchments at Petersburg, VA, that early in World War I, military thinkers revisited their doctrines and decided that trench warfare was the way to go (trenching by South Africa’s Boers also fired the British military’s imagination). And of course, back then, soldiers marched everywhere: a) Sibley’s poorly-supplied Texans marched 800 miles from San Antonio to Santa Fe (farther than Napoleon’s epic march on Moscow)—and back, with their supplies in even worse condition; and b) the First Colorado Regiment marched 300 miles from Denver City to Fort Union in 13 days—they averaged a marathon a day, despite being struck twice by blizzards. Push comes to shove, probably everything about fighting in the Civil War was miserable.

AARON: What was the best book you read in preparation of your novel, best hike, best coffee shop you wrote in? Best one thing?

the-battle-of-glorieta-union-victory-in-the-westQuinn: Best Book: the best non-fiction book I read while researching was Don E. Alberts’s The Battle of Glorieta, Union Victory in the West. It is well written and well annotated, and while several books on the subject indulge in apocrypha, Mr. Alberts sticks to facts. Best fiction was re-reading Erich Maria Remarque’s All Quiet on the Western Front, and while it’s about World War I instead of the Civil War, it reminded me how grim humor functions in wartime.

Best Hike: The Indian Creek Trail in New Mexico’s San Mateo Mountains. New Mexico Highway 107 strikes south from the town of Magdalena and more or less follows the route of the Texans’ retreat from the debacle at Peralta. Indian Creek is more or less where I imagined my fictional Confederates taking a wrong turn and dooming their escape. I hiked there in April once, and even that early in springtime, already it was awfully hot, dry, and windy, which pretty much set the tone for Glorieta’s ending.

Best Place to Write: Apart from my home office, where all the heavy lifting gets done, the two places I most enjoyed working on Glorieta were: a) New Mexico’s highways—I didn’t write while driving, but I did keep a digital recorder handy and narrated the sights as I went; and b) Evengelo’s Lounge, 200 West San Francisco St Santa Fe, NM 87501‎. The owner, Nick Evengelo, is someone everyone should meet—a total character, but decent and kind. I sat at Nick’s bar on a cold, quiet January night, and he kept the drinks coming and inquired occasionally to see how the writing was going. Very well, as I recall, or at least until those drinks kicked in. Very happy memories of that place.

AARON: What is the best story that didn’t make it into your novel, or did all the great stories make it in?

Quinn: A lot was cut, condensed, or simply faded away from the first draft to the final, but I think that everything truly essential survived. I cut a good bit of the Coloradans’ (i.e., the fictional miners who enlisted just before the First Colorado Regiment set off for New Mexico) back-story, and I think they seem a little weird as a result, but I really didn’t want to go over 500 pages or chop the story into halves. Other stories were cool but didn’t directly advance the plot, so these, too, were cut: at one point, historic Central City figures Aunt Clara Brown and Mary York—one black and the other white, but both fugitives from slavery—helped my fictional miners in their flight from crooked justice; and I compressed a section on the Taos Rebellion—which spread far beyond Taos—so that only events affecting one antagonist’s family were retained. Also, I moved a great deal of biographical information about actual persons, including their post-war lives, to my websites, quinnkaysercochran.com (and/or westlandbooks.com.)

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AARON: Why do you think the Civil War in the West is such a “hidden” story?

Quinn: I think there are several reasons. The first is scale: relatively minor battles back East involved thousands, even tens of thousands of combatants; at Glorieta, Valverde, and Peralta, there were never—even with both sides combined—more than 3,500 men on those fields, and by far these were the largest battles in the far West (remember, in mid-19th Century America, Missouri, Kansas, and Iowa were considered “west”. The Mississippi River was a de facto West Coast—anything farther was Terra Incognita). The westernmost cavalry skirmish (i.e., between actual soldiers and not partisans) of the Civil War, near Picacho Peak west of Tucson, involved about twenty men on each side—small wonder only diehards and history buffs know about it. Cataclysmic events at Cold Harbor, Fredericksburg, and Manassas deserve more attention simply because of the numbers involved, and because their outcomes had a far greater impact on the war’s result.

The idea that Confederate victory in New Mexico could have turned the entire war in the South’s favor is a stretch. They simply didn’t have enough men or matériel to execute their plans. Had the Texans conclusively won at Glorieta (they did win, but had gained little, left their enemy largely intact, and had to retreat once they discovered that Union raiders had destroyed their supply train), they would have continued toward Fort Union, likely under harassment from Union troops, and found it stripped of supplies. Even if they’d reached Colorado and seized its mines, there’s no conceivable way they could’ve made it then to Salt Lake City (at that time, there was no road through the Rocky Mountains—they would have had to go out of their way north through Wyoming). And west to Los Angeles—where they planned to rally the secession-minded populace and seize its port—the conditions were at least as difficult. Really, their whole enterprise was doomed from the outset.

Another reason few people know about these battles is that they occurred in isolation. Even today, events in the Midwest and West receive comparatively slight coverage in the national press—if anything, in 1862 this disparity was even greater. Huge battles (20,000+ combatants) in Arkansas and Missouri were hardly noticed in New York City, Philadelphia, and Boston, and of course Washington, D.C., Richmond, VA, and Charleston, SC, were front-line cities with problems of their own—people there didn’t have time to notice rather minor events in the far West. Isolation from Eastern population centers also meant less documentation in the press—less of a paper trail for historians and researchers to follow—so the perpetual analysis that accompanies most Civil War events does not occur.

Finally, most history books don’t consider the many Western Indian wars concurrent with the Civil War as part of the Civil War, though surely they were. A partial list includes the Snake War in Idaho, Oregon, and California; the Dakota War, which roiled Minnesota and Iowa; and the proxy war fought between tribes exiled to Indian Territory (today’s State of Oklahoma. How’s that for wretched irony? Tribes expelled from the North and South fought against each other on behalf of their former homelands …). All these conflicts drew men and resources away from Eastern campaigns—who knows what might have resulted had they been deployed there instead? The best non-fiction book I have found that treats the West as a theater of the war is Alvin Josephy’s The Civil War in the American West.

chivingtonEven here in Colorado, the Battle of Glorieta Pass is largely unknown, which is odd, given that we supplied the troops that helped turn back a Confederate invasion of New Mexico Territory. However, in 1864, less than two years after the heroics east of Santa Fe, John Chivington led the First Colorado Regiment against an Indian encampment on Sand Creek in eastern Colorado Territory. Primarily women, children, and the elderly (most fighting-age men were away hunting), these Indians had camped at the U.S. government’s instruction, and flown both U.S. and white flags to signify their peaceful and cooperative intentions. At first, resulting slaughter was hailed as a great victory, but once stories about the camp’s true nature and body parts from desecrated corpses began circulating in Denver, the scandal that erupted resulted in Congressional inquiries, the murder of a witness before he could testify, and disgrace for the perpetrators. Indian tribes previously disposed to be neutral or friendly toward white settlers no longer trusted the U.S. military, and in no small way, this led to the really awful Indian wars that erupted once the Civil War concluded. All of this is rather heavy for fourth graders, which is the level at which most American schoolchildren learn their state’s history. Ergo, here as much as anywhere, hardly anyone knows about what happened at Glorieta.

In my novel, I tried to make John Chivington as complex as I could without excusing his numerous flaws. By all accounts, he was a good family man (aren’t they always?) who hated slavery, and who, prior to Sand Creek, usually sided with right against wrong. He could also be calculating and bombastic—his was the only opinion that mattered. From historic documents and contemporary writings, I couldn’t fully discern his relationship with the First Colorado’s first colonel, John P. Slough. After the war, he defended Slough’s leadership at Glorieta, though this may have been politically motivated revisionism. Certainly, the First Colorado was riddled with feuds, large and small, so it’s not hard to imagine that these two outsized personalities had theirs, too. As well, Glorieta Pass and Sand Creek may be viewed as halves of a whole, at least where Chivington is concerned. At Glorieta, he led a raiding party intent on flanking the Confederates’ main thrust eastward from Santa Fe. Instead, they overshot their goal, stumbled upon the Texans’ lightly guarded supply train, and destroyed it, which forced the Southerners into retreat. At Sand Creek, it’s possible he had the same mindset: knowing that the Indians’ fighting forces were absent and seeing the lightly defended encampment as a supply base for hostiles (nevermind that the tribes in question had foresworn violence), he destroyed the camp, believing that he was forcing a potential threat to withdraw. Who knows? Whatever his thinking, he made himself a pariah even to this day.

AARON: If you had a time machine that could only take you back to the 1860’s, where would you go and why?

Quinn: Any one of several mining camps in Nevada: Treasure City in White Pine County, Austin in Lander County, or Virginia City on the Comstock. Just to see a mining rush of that era at its zenith—can’t really explain why, other than to concede that I’m weird. In Roughing It, Mark Twain tells a story about how Virginia City came to a standstill as the sun set beneath heavy clouds, spotlighting an American flag that flew from the top of Mount Davidson, west of town. There was a buzz on the streets, as people who saw this phenomenon took it as an omen, not knowing that Union forces had just turned back Robert E. Lee’s invasion of the North at Gettysburg, PA, or that Vicksburg, MS, had just fallen to U.S. Grant’s Army of the West (again, see what was considered “west?”). However, Twain being Twain, who knows if this was several events conflated for effect, or for that matter if it was entirely fabricated? Either way it’s a good story—but it sure would be fun to see for myself.

Thanks, Aaron, for this opportunity to ramble about things oddly near and dear to my heart.

Thank you, and yeah, I’ll pass on the chicory coffee roasted endive roots?  We shan’t be seeing that in Starbucks any time soon!

I Get Blue and Gray With Historical Fiction Writer Quinn Kayser-Cochran Part 1

theNeverPrayer_young_adult_snippet_webby So, I’m finally off the road. My book has been out about nine months and I’ve been pounding the pavement, harassing people of all socio-economic classes. Those with tattoos and those without. Please, my friend, buy my book. Why you no buy my book? Is good book for you!

So, since my life has calmed down, now it’s time to get back to what I really love: harassing authors—those with tattoos and those without.

I wanted to kick off the next round of interviews with a bang, like in the American Civil War, and not just the Civil War—the Civil War in the American West. No, seriously, the Confeds and the Unies also fought where the air is dry and the rain is drier.

quinn k 9863dd3Confeds. Unies. I made those up. Hmm, maybe I can write a dystopian novel using those names. Anyway, I first met Quinn Kayser-Cochran at a writers’ conference and we talked fiction and the horrendous uphill battle it takes to write it. Like Pickett’s Charge. He was working on a Civil War book and we totally agreed to do an interview. Then it all fell apart back in June. But he did agree that once his book got published, he would interview and provide me with cautionary tales.

So, I have to warn you, this is going to get gritty. And crappy. Did you know more people died in the Civil War from dysentery than they did from guns? Yeah, this interview is going to be just like that.

But first, his bio!

Quinn Kayser-Cochran lives in Colorado with his wife and two children. He earned a degree in English from Columbia University. Based on actual events, his first novel, GLORIETA, is an historic fiction about the Civil War as it unfolded on the Western Frontier. Mr. Kayser-Cochran has researched the Confederates’ 1862 invasion of New Mexico—and the Union’s subsequent response—for almost twenty years, including time on the battlefields and trails depicted in Glorieta. Currently, he is working on a political drama set in an early 20th Century Nevada mining boomtown.

Now, grab your bullets, grab your muskets, polish that sabre, here is the interview!

Aaron: Do you have a tattoo? I know, weird, but this might be the best question in the interview.

Quinn: Right out of the chute, I hate to disappoint, but no. Never even wanted one. Like buttermilk or mushrooms, I don’t object if other people prefer these things for themselves, but I never have. Honestly, I look at photos of the clothes I wore twenty years ago and cringe—why would I want to make a potential mistake permanent? I do carry some scars (surgical—the best of which runs from just over my left ear to midway down the back of my neck [brain tumor, 2002]—and non-surgical, such as a small furrow on my left thumb where I sunk a coping saw halfway into the nail, age eight, trying to build a balsa wood airplane in my Dad’s workshop), but since no thought was given to their design or placement, they have no decorative value.

AARON: So when we talked in June, you said you’d give me the real story about self-publishing. Your book is now out there. What 2.5 things would you do exactly the same? What 2.5 things would you do completely differently? I know—half an answer for half a question. Weird.

confederate-ironclad-merrimacQuinn: I will list the differences first. 1) Next time, I will submit an ironclad manuscript. Amazon.com’s CreateSpace platform allows authors to make revisions as they go (however, fees are charged after the first couple uploads), which, for me, is like providing additional rope with which to hang myself. I’ve never read anything, anything I’ve written without wanting to make changes, so this got me into trouble—probably added three months to the process. 2) Next time from the start, I will have a fully developed marketing plan. Hard to believe that I was caught off guard at the end of an eight-year process, but it’s true. For a long time, publication was just a concept—something that might happen on some unspecified date way in the future—and I confess that I didn’t draft a proper business plan in advance. Now I’m flying by the seat of my pants and, I would guess, achieving half as much for twice the work. Had to scramble to build a website, launch a Twitter account, etc. It’s all rather exhilarating, but that’s one of the tradeoffs with self-publication: more of the reward for all the risk (and work). Best advice I would have for other DIY’ers is to network like crazy. Find others who have gone before you and are willing to offer advice, friendly criticism, etc. Think of your book as a small business and remember that just like a business, those without goals and plans usually fail to achieve them. And finally, 2.5) I will have more focus. I took about eight or nine years to write Glorieta, in part because I occasionally set it aside for no particular reason. Not for work, my children, or life events, though at various points I did set writing it aside for those reasons, but because I lacked the discipline to stick with it. The book I’m working on now—a political drama set in an early-twentieth century company-mining town—has its own peculiar challenges, but at least I’m getting better about routinely appearing in front of the keyboard.

The two-point-five things I would do the same include: 1) obsessing over historical details. As in science fiction, part of the fun of historic fiction is world building, though unlike sci-fi, where so long as one is consistent, one may invent whatever one wishes, one must get historic fiction just right—there are scholars and purists ready to criticize any inaccuracy or anachronism, however slight. I believe in sacrificing one hundred-percent accuracy for the sake of storytelling, but not everyone sees it that way. 2) I will travel to research the places I write about; there is no substitute for “plein air” writing. And 2.5) I will seek criticism and commentary early and often. Writers’ groups, workshops, trusted friends—the more feedback, the better. Also, I will read aloud what I have written—if it doesn’t sound right aloud, often it isn’t.

AARON: Glorieta started out as a screenplay. How was it turning a lean screenplay into a long novel? The real question is, why isn’t your book 120 pages long?

Glorieta_Front_Book_Cover_medQuinn: Glorieta really began as a college paper. Years later, it became a screenplay when a friend in TV production suggested I write one. Screenplays are peculiar things with lots of formatting quirks and industry-specific rules, and I tried really hard to make mine conform to those standards (as best I understood them, anyway, given that I was teaching myself as I went, far removed from the filmmaking capitals of New York and California). An agent I worked with said that she liked it, but also that it was too literary and therefore needed changes. Well, I thought that already the story had changed to conform to rules I did not fully understand, so I decided instead to turn Glorieta into the book it wanted to be. As for the 120-page question (there’s one of those rules: one page of script equals one minute of film—120 pages/minutes is the standard. Well-knowns can break this rule; unknowns cannot), within my 120-page screenplay was 90 pages of story, and I was simply unable to say what I really wanted to in so limited a space.

AARON: Okay, lots of people have written about and explored the Civil War. So here are a few, and if you aren’t familiar with them, just put in NA. Okay, ready? And make sure you explain your answers.

Ken Burns, awesome, or iffy?

Quinn: Pretty awesome. I really like Ken Burns’ Civil War series—I think it covered more of the human side of the war than anything before, and frankly, that’s what I find interesting. A lot of Civil War writing over-emphasizes troop movements and battlefield heroics, resulting in a Marvel Comics-esque tone—triumphalism that robs the work of emotional depth. You must have those things, too, but there has to be more. Burns properly spent time recounting the human costs of the war: the soldiers’ physical and mental wounds, the widows and orphans, the sense of loss that permeated public life for decades after—even some veterans’ reconciliations in their final years. Our culture trivializes violence in sneaky ways: movies, music, and talk-radio exalt it, and games allow regular people to kill indiscriminately 24/7, so that we think we’re immune to its corrosive effects, but we are not. Consider even one notorious school shooting: after murdering classmates at Columbine High School, security videos show Klebold and Harris dejectedly stalking the halls, weapons still loaded, aware that other students remained in the building, yet unwilling or unable to continue with something they had conditioned themselves to believe would be easy and satisfying. Once the initial rush wore off, though, even these pitifully fucked-up kids sagged under the weight of killing their fellow humans. It is wretched work, no matter if one is fueled by rage or righteousness.

Some wonder why interest in the Civil War persists, but I think that’s because most people focus on the word “war” rather than “civil.” The last few election cycles and all the recent political brinksmanship have been awful. Don’t like your neighbor’s politics? Fine—that’s as American as apple pie and a semi-automatic weapon in the coat-closet. But imagine killing your neighbor, his wife, his kids, because you think the name on the yard-sign stuck in his lawn is ungodly. If that isn’t hard to do, if that thought doesn’t make you terribly uncomfortable, then go get counseling. Seriously. Go. But that’s what the Civil War was—citizens killing citizens, neighbors killing neighbors, over fucking politics. We must study this stuff to try to understand it—it cannot be forgotten so that it is never repeated. Before people sign secession petitions, they need to read Drew Gilpin Faust’s
This Republic of Suffering, about the Civil War’s wretched aftermath—see how well that went last time. The famous Clausewitz quote holds that “war is the continuation of politics by other means,” but really, war is the breakdown of politics—like secession, it is extra-political, and one rarely goes without the other. Secession isn’t just a parliamentary procedure like pigeonholing a noxious bill–thinking otherwise is dangerously foolish.

Aaron: Killer Angels, awesome or iffy?

Quinn: Iffy, and I know that’s semi-heretical—sorry. Read it once more than a decade ago, so my recollection is vague, but I remember struggling to finish it. Picked it up and put it down several times. I recall a description of one Southern commander (Stonewall Jackson?) habitually chewing on lemons, but that’s about all. Generals moving regiments around battlefields can be interesting (Noah Andre Trudeau’s Gettysburg, A Testing of Courage is a non-fiction favorite), but that usually takes an historian with a novelist’s soul. There aren’t too many of those, but discovering one can be thrilling.

Aaron: Cold Mountain, awesome or iffy?

Quinn: Staggeringly awesome. I deliberately stayed away from Cold Mountain until Glorieta was done, because I’d seen part of the movie-version on TV and liked it so much that I was afraid I would unconsciously pull parts of it into my own work. Having since read it, I concede that nothing I have ever written is in the same league as Charles Frazier’s towering work, but at least now I know what’s possible. Cold Mountain and Glorieta both follow couples in wartime—Ada and Inman, Jacob and Adria—though their circumstances, challenges, and resolutions are vastly different. There is one vague similarity (and I wrote this into my first draft years ago; I did not lift it from Mr. Frazier’s book—it is a far older cliché than that): both couples have “one last night together” in cabins with fireplaces (In my story, it’s a barn rather than a cabin, and the wood in the fireplace will not light). In the book version of Cold Mountain, though Ada and Inman’s night together is of great consequence, the episode itself is subtle and brief (of course, in the movie version, this scene gets the deluxe, soft-core treatment: gentle firelight, beautiful bodies entwined—the works). In Glorieta, Jacob and Adria’s interlude is taken from personal experience: decades ago, my girlfriend at the time and I decided to sneak away on a freezing night. Every minute under that blanket was awkward, uncomfortable, and cold, but did we stop? Of course not—not even frostbite can keep smitten young’uns from rounding second base—but thinking about this years later, I was reminded of the persistence of emotion in the face of intense discomfort. Write what you know.

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The epic battle continues tomorrow!  Once more into the jaws of death with writer Quinn Kayser-Cochran.  See you there!  If you dare!